30 Jan 2012

Give Unto Me (Redemption Faraway)

Read Part-1 Here

In my arms, her body feels like a cotton rag doll's. She is soft. I hold my redemption in my hands. I remember the first time I had seen her. It was 10 years back. Before she got married to that rascal. She was sitting in a coffee shop, sitting alone, sipping her Irish Coffee, lost in her own thoughts. It was her eyes - the blue frozen ice crystals, which caught me. I was looking for a library where I could find some of my ancient texts for giving a lecture at some University. Yes, I was a Professor. Humans could never spot me. I could shape-shift, bring dead to life, heal fatal wounds and fall in love. 

This time, This place...
Misused, Mistakes,
Too long, Too late...
Who was I to make you wait,
Just one chance, 
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left,
'Cause you know, 
you know, you know
That I love you,
I have loved you all along...
And I miss you, 
Been far away for far too long,
I keep dreaming you'll be with me,
and you'll never go...
Stop breathing if, 
I don't see you anymore...

I am dreaming. A pair of strong arms is holding me. I have a feeling I am not in the arms of a human man. That face....I open my eyes slightly. OH.DAMN. This man! The man who was near my window, this man, I had noticed him watching me every day of my life since 10 years. I still remember that day. I was in a coffee shop, thinking of the murderous attempt on my dreams had been done by my Father and Mother when they had gotten me betrothed to that jerk of all times. Money Money Money. That's what they ever thought of. And that's what my husband thought. To make love to me was a task he could never accomplish. His parents blamed me for not bearing his seed. My desires were over. I could not bear his touch on my body. I used to be out most of the time. Doing this and doing that. And when I returned, putrid breath and coarse arms welcomed me. I had reached my breaking point. I wanted to die. To somehow make it end. I could not, could not dare to go to police. Societal pressure was immense. After all, I was the one who was "barren". Who knew?

I keep her gently on my bed and sit on the chair far from where she sleeps. She is pure. I wouldn't dare disturb her. I had broken all the rules of me being a daemon tonight. I have been in love with this human woman for 10 years now, I have touched her, thought of loving her. I have resurrected her. Kept her from dying. I was anyway ostracized by my people...and now I have no way back to anywhere...except coming back to her. She would give me what I wanted. Have always wanted. My end would be her beginning. Her life would be my life. My death. My redemption. Her purity, her truth, her acceptance would save me. Save her. The only thing I can do right now is to wait. Wait for her to recollect her thoughts. I could see her eyes moving under those delicate pale lids. What must she be seeing? Recalling? Who knows?

I must wake up now. Confront the silent observer who, now I know, must have saved me. Time and again may be. I don't know. I open my one eye slowly and sunlight hits me. I close my eye instantly. Okay Okay, take it easy. Do not panic. My heart tells me to stay put and not put it in danger. Yea. Right. I roll over to my side and sit up abruptly - expecting the other occupant of my room to get up. But I see him, in the farthest corner of this room - Huge, painted sunshine yellow? Wow! And filled with wonderful upholstery. Hmmm...nice. I tip toe silently out of the bed and a realization hits me. I.AM.FREE. I.AM.ABSOLUTELY.FREE!!!!! I want to scream and shout and yell! I feel like a 16 year old young girl. However, my good sense prevails and I decide to examine him. The man who might have given me silent company for past so many years.

"Ahem. Erm. Goodmorning!" God! I am being so stupid! I am not acting like the woman I am. Ah. Freedom is getting to me.

I feel her presence before she speaks to me. But I cannot open my eyes. What if this is a dream? Is she really speaking to me? That tinkling voice...which now seems to be filled with...with suppressed excitement? But can I believe it? Should I believe it? I am scared and feel like my heart is beating fast, coming to life slowly. I...will she accept me? As I was? As I am? As I would ever be? A shiver is constantly running through me. The woman of my dreams, the one who was ever elusive is right here. Speaking to me. I cannot contain myself any longer. I open my eyes quickly and sit up.

"Whoa!! Easy. Are you the one who was near my window last night? Aren't you the man in the shadows, watching me silently, always?" I have lost every bit of my damn mind. This man could be a psychopath for all I know.

"I never knew you could talk so much! So many questions!" Shit. I hope she would not be offended. I'm loving the way she is blabbering. But...how can I start telling her? She might just walk over me for all I know.

"Yes. Sorry. So are you or are you not? The Man?" Oh. My tongue will be the end of me some day.

"Yes. I am the one watching you. And I am not a man." I cannot stop myself. If I can really tell her the truth, it's now or never.

I am not a man. My mind tries to wrap itself around this statement. He was not exactly a man, I already know that. But what he would be, I did not. The way his eyes are looking at me...it feels like....like he loves me. Oh Dear Lord! Those eyes...they are incredible. Dark Blue. Do humans have those eyes? My knowledge, as far as I know, says no. May be he has a junk DNA or something. But he already mentioned he was not human. So what is he?

"Listen. I don't want you to freak out. I am not a stalker, though it may look like it...but I was just around to ensure that you were safe...that I could see you. " I should have told her now that I am a daemon. But, the look in her eyes and that upward tilted chin reveals to me that I should be the one not dishing out challenges to her, of not freaking out.

"You mean, you were around to ensure that I was just alive. If you were to ensure I were safe, you would have ensured it a long time back. Who are you anyway?" I could not avoid the bitterness in me from spilling out. Anyone who showed they really cared had to show it. At least to me.

"I was not permitted to intervene into the matters of a human. Yet, I fought and ensured that I could at least keep you alive for me....I....I am a daemon. Part human Part beast. I want you to know, that we exist. I exist." She stands there, staring at me with those Ice-Blue eyes. In my long life, for the first time, I freeze.

PS: Sorry, no pictures for this one. Have been caught up with the realities of life. Yet, life moves on and so does my story. Hoping that you love this one... Blessed Be My Dears! 
PPS: If I get chance, I will repost this one, with pictures. Till then... 


meoww said...

mishtii !!!
sighh..u don't need to put up any pics u know..i could visualize every line of the story..
though i spoke to you 2 days back..it feels as if its been days..
missing you like mad.. :(
sigh..the story is progressing so well...waiting to read the next part..
and baby girl..
i know..i know of all your fears..and your pains..
and just like me..
goddess is with you all the time..
i love you my u we tsi a geya..
blessed be


TheGirlAtFirstAvenue said...

Look who's back! Finally! :D

I was so caught up in reading that I din't notice there were no pictures! The story is brilliant... please dont make us wait for too long!

Paanipuri Lover said...

OMG! I loved the story! And I loved how you set the tone right with "far away"... that song always touched me, but this time, on a totally different level! Loved it pradeeta! It was wonderful! :D :D

Viya ;) said...

omg!! How long have i been away for?? :) and seriously! i dunno how you always manage to keep me hooked to your beauuutttiiful stories :) :)
Awwweesssommee Pradeeta!! :) :)

Mirage said...


I am so happy to see you back. Missed you dost!!

And this story...wow! Even I did not realize that there are no pictures...it was so gripping, you see. =)

Blasphemous Aesthete said...

Pictures are needed to add imagery when words don't paint it. Here, I believe it wasn't necessary at all.

Wonderful proceeding of the story.

Blasphemous Aesthete

Megha Sarin said...

Love that song..far away by Nickelback right!
This is so touching..emotions running high..