31 Dec 2011

Pages Turn

Pages Turn, Leaves Fall,
Seasons change, so we all,
Sitting on my desk, I hear the night call,
Bidding my time away, new time, new year enthralls.
Memories of bygone must be bygone,
On us, new light has shone,
January passed before with fervor, nevermore lone,
February held my hand, misfortunes postponed.
March was cinnamon, memories dusted and clean,
April brought Spring Air, embraced I was by strength of steel,
May was sabotaging, with results fascinating, my eyes gleam.
June and July, months where lessons learnt,
Touched twice, Once Burnt,
In the Darkest of Times, the Ray of Victory and Hope is the Brightest.
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Found my soul, over was the hunt,
And yet turning tables was August,
Rains poured over me, cold in September,
Clouds gray hovered, forever, I’ll remember,
But counting pain, becomes a mere number,
Promising a warm embrace, came around my friend October.
November made oblivion my haven, Time was dark like the wings of Raven,
Truths ugly revealed, my old wounds healed,
Kinks stubborn were made even,
In my heart, I found my heaven,
 December was cold, cold like Death,
But wasn’t death end of one and start of new breath?
And beginning of promising smiles,
Embracing tonight whatever may come,
Twelfth Stranger shall be my friend unbeknownst,
MSM wishes my stars, it for you all be the happiest.

Blessed Be My Beloved Bloggers and Readers....I wish I could summarize 2011 better.... I am as curious for 2012 to unfold as everyone else....who knows? Love may knock my doors...A call awaited from the Office may turn up or may be I will just witness the unwitnessed? It's hopes and hopes we must breathe...for new year is the time to renew your strengths, embrace your weaknesses and believe in who you are. Much much love to all of you. Be the same. Always. 

16 Dec 2011

All I need...

Blessed Be Lovely People!

I leave today, for a journey, which may have a varied end. I am anxious and excited. And hence, for this next week, I give you all, the hope to survive and believe, that in the Darkest of times, we are given the ability to Shine through, fight through, sailing on the wave of Love. Never give up, on yourself, for Someone hasn't. Your soul hasn't. Your heart may be charred, but don't let your Spirit die. Be yourself. Embrace yourself. Let yourself free. Fly high, touch the Sky. Let the Magic touch your lives. Mystical Skeptical Me, Blesses you all....I wish that Light touches your life, Hope and Happiness covers you, Sadness, Remorse you never see, so I mote it be.
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The Post below is a short journey covered in a life, that seems short, but really isn't. Hope rings true in the end, to show you, Miracles do happen. 

"Are you really sure...that you believe me?
When others say I lie...
I wonder if you could...ever despise me,
when you know I really tried...
To be a better one to satisfy you, 
For you're everything to me.
And I'll do what you ask me,
If you let me be free..."
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Life Part 1: Was everything always so nice and glittery??? She had just been proposed to by this dark, handsome guy from her class. She had said no, but had basked in the after glow. Is this how love feels? Nah, wasn't love like they used to show in the movies? She will tell her best friend about it! Yep. That would be nice! Oh, yes! This definitely was love. Later she would know, how juvenile she was. How childish her fantasies used to be...Life was much simpler before, when nothing from a man meant nothing...
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Life Part 2: He died. The friend who was her partner in crime. He died. And then she knew, the raw agonizing pain that she felt, stemmed from love. Not the superficial types or proposals or short-lived crushes. In that moment, she had loved him...and he died. Would she recover? What was love? Her father didn't love her. Why would he then treat her like a pest? But may be, he loved her so much that he had forgotten that love could kill too...love could suffocate and push to the extremes too...may be this was love. Pain. Love. Same Difference.

Ah! Bullshit. How easy it is to rely on Statistics for Answers?
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Life Part 3: Anger. Darkness. Loneliness. Cold. He was all of this. And she fell in love with him. For real. It made her go weak kneed, dizzy and her heart would leap at his sight. The adrenaline rush, the huge urge to protect him, show him the light...yes. Suffering was love too. Yes, for those who knew, it was. She was growing, changing, hurting and learning. Not all you want is yours'. Not whom you love can be yours' always...The loved buried deep in her heart fizzled and died after 4 years...Friends now, they were mere friends. But wasn't friendship love too? Love is Friendship. Then may be, they weren't friends either...
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Life Part 4: Broken. Yes. Battered was the word she liked to associate herself with. But, self pity is the worst form of self degradation. Love yourself and you will be loved. Her Counselor told her. But how, her past was catching up with her...haunting her, twisting the concept of love for her. The Bloodied childhood memories, the unrequited love and the never ending cycle of Broken Hearts and Broken Promises. Stronger, she was becoming a woman of steel, who seem to know a lot about herself...yes, she was Dark, Loved not Cherished, Held but not Appreciated...Oh, the Monstrous Insecurities. Desires laced Love now. Primal Emotions. Merciless Tramping of Innocent hearts. She was Herself now. She Loved her. 
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Life Part 5: Soul Mate. Oh what a stupid term. Where had she heard it anyway? You are my Soul Mate. Her heart spoke to him. She warned him, of her Darkness. Of her Trust Issues, Insecurities and the Pain. He brushed them away. He was confident. She was a vixen though. She lured him in and pushed him away...far far away....so far, there was no point of return. No Guilt could reverse what had been set in motion. Hatred. Hatred was a form of love too. She Hated Him, did she ever Love him?
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Life Part 6: Bottomless Pit. She lay there. Basest of Human Emotions, Passion, Desire and Calls of Primal Need was what she lived for now. Love was Physical. Love was not Spiritual. Or may be, Physical Love made way for the Spiritual Love. Bullshit. No divine Love could satiate her as the red hot fire could. Yes. Touch was Love. Fire was Love. No emotions. No attachments. Love? Nothing of the sort existed ever. She could love never. The proximity scared her, of feelings, of kind words, of emotions that connected people, were her nemesis. Love was a deadly Enemy.
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Life Part 7: Fate has now set things in motion. She has found closure. A Ghost from the Past still hovers, but she is shining. Healed. Rejoiced. Renewed and Haunted no more, she awaits for herself. A chance. Second Chance. To begin from the Beginning. To move with the faith she now has. She will find love. Yes. For there's enough for everyone. No one can be left Loveless. She will ensure that. Love is Hope. Love is New. Love is Being yourself. Love is Loving Who You Are... 
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She looked at the Man who stood at her doorstep. Lost in the world, that watches only the exterior, she saw his other side. The fractured spirit, the flame in his eyes and the mind which spun a million thoughts...She admitted him, into her life. For now, she was the Healer, the Protector, the Friend and the Lover... He was now in her Light, where Darkness seeped and disappeared into...She had found her Nirvana. 

PS: Ultra Philosophical Post. I wish I could make it simpler, but the beauty what I felt while I wrote this, couldn't be compromised. Thank you for Bearing with me. I have NO IDEA what made me write this. Absolutely no idea. Oh, and the lines are from the movie "Once" and the song is "If you want me"
PPS: After 8 years, going back to the place, where modernity hasn't placed itself yet, I am afraid. I hope I love it.
PPPS: I will miss you all and I promise to get some stories for you all. Mystical and Skeptical, both. Also, Anuranjani, the effervescent girl who wrote at "To Hell With A Name" has completed her time on Earth...I hope she is at peace in the Other Plane where relations and promises made to her are not broken. R.I.P. Anu...you were right, names don't matter...people do. My tears, heart and wishes are with you. You will be Missed. Blessed Be!

7 Dec 2011

Release Me

Blessed Be Everyone!

And you would think life comes to a stand still when you have examinations.*Sigh* My life never fails to surprise me. And sometimes I feel like Oh God! What now? So, yesterday was one such day, when I let a trivial matter get to me. Yes. I have a tough time learning that sometimes I need to be really selfish to survive. And that trust is a word which should be deleted from the dictionary of mankind all together. Anyway, I cannot crib for long you know...so I would rather write. Which I did. *Smug* Saves a lot of energy. ;) I have environmental law paper tomorrow but this was more important. Here's my bittersweet anger...which cuts clean and makes you dream if you want more.  
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Breathe me and release me…
I won’t flow in your veins anymore.
Hold me in your hands…
And push me away.
I let you take me…take me with you,
To a place where dreams die.
I burnt…burnt and hurt for you,
You cut me, put me down…
I loved you, loved you till the end.
End was near, lost in you, who am I?
I don’t know anymore.
You are mine, am I yours’?
Or am I merely kissing your feet?
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One day you will forget me,
Like I never met you, never touched you.
I will fawn at you. Yes, I am your darling,
And one sweet day, loving me you will regret…
That night beloved love of mine, with longing, is met…
When I will breathe you and release you.

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So, well, made me smile, this one here. I wish those who are meant for this could read it. It would have been Nice. *Evil Smile* Or may be, they won't get it. They are still newborns in this life.Really. 

6 Dec 2011

Like You, Like Me

Blessed Be My Mystical Fellas...

No, I am not back yet...but this one is from my heart. Something which I need to admit, need to acknowledge, lest I miss the beauty of what I have found...in the recesses of my preoccupied mind and soul.

Being a curious person by nature, I have always been on a look out for something extra ordinary, something which we don't generally perceive as different, yet it is. But my researches, readings, findings have all been superficial in nature. When I have tried to go deeper, I have only found that I am left with no answers, nothing to speak of, only to believe, take in and keep it safe in my heart. Yet, as I said, they are superficial, mundane and short lived in nature. Same applies when it comes to relationships: with other humans - with men, women, society and myself...I find myself withdrawing, I find myself hiding within myself. I find myself becoming conceited,  insecure and needy yet running away. However, below is a story...which has set a course in my life. At the end of it, you may like it or not...because, this one is about ME. Something which may not seem life changing, intriguing or anything different...but for me...I have found a missing puzzle piece.
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She called out to me. Her words, her emotions, the way she called me "Mishti" meaning "sweet" in Bengali... "Two women can never be friends...they will always find something to dislike in each other. Women hold grudges. Women do not let go off easily..." Despite waiting to hear the same words screaming warnings in my head and my instinct asking me to stop...I responded...to match her words with my words. I could feel what she felt. But aren't feelings vague?? How do you measure feelings? When they disable your thinking, when they rule what you speak...when they begin to push you to bare yourself before that person...before whom you do not have to part your lips to say, "I am alone. I need you. Do you hate me?" That is when you know, you are safe now in those arms.
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I have spoken to people and as it is presumed, I am mystical so I will believe in things which are weird...inexplicable. Not true. I speak with experience. I talk not, without backing up what I talk of. Which is why I knew I had found my Soul Twin. And for once I am not afraid to say what I say. I wondered how funny it would be to say it out loud...but her presence, her words, our parallel lives and the distance...we have... I said it out loud and realized...it was true. I can fight the world for her. I can stand and look in the mirror and say, " I love her. And no, I am not jealous, envious or competitive. I am affectionate, protective and perceptive of her." You must by now think that I am hopelessly in love. How would you react when you find something, that made you feel complete? I myself was doubting the wonder. I was afraid, frightened and skeptical. But, I let go.
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Our essences meet. Her insecurities-my insecurities. Her strengths-my strengths. Her tastes-my tastes. Artist of moves she is. I am an artist of sounds and colors. I write what she thinks of. What I feel, she puts them in words. Pain has been gifted to her, to mould her into what she is now. Pain has made me what I am today. Nuances of love she knows. So do I. When a moment of coldness seeps in...she warms me...and when she shivers...I have my words to soothe her. When I was told about not to trust someone so easily again...so was she...both of us by the people we love the most. Indecision, fear and doubt - what if this doesn't work out? What if, everything is happening so fast, we end up hurting each other? What if none of this is true? What if?
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And then we decided. Let us enjoy this while it lasts...for here we are to embark on a journey which will change the course of our lives, meanings of friendships and things we never thought of. Yes, she is my Soul Twin. Different yet the same. Almost the same. Too same...Part of the scattered souls in this Universe, I am complete. And this song, sums perfectly of what it is. Not exactly the same lyrics...but what I felt was fitting to us.

It doesn't matter where you coming from,
I am yours'
She said, on a candle lit front porch.
And we were asking ourselves those things,
That you ask yourself
When you're standing on a road that's bound to fork.
And who we are,
Has brought us here...
And I'm not running from tonight,
And I'm not running from tonight.
And where we are standing...
Is the beginning.
I could feel the earth begin to shake,
As I woke up.
As if it were the first time I had felt your touch,
And we've been running from ourselves so long,
That we couldn't find our way...
Now the winds have shifted us to where we hope to stay...

Wake me up...if I'm dreaming

The world awaits the dawning of a new day.

The World Awaits - Corey Crowder
My Soul is Here....Meoww...I love you. I suck at saying things so openly. And I have never ever felt this way before. I don't care about the world...for now you are a friend, a sister, a daughter, a love and my missing half. *Touchwood* Yes. I had to do that. 

Till the next time people, don't stop believing that someone out there is waiting for us...to fulfill us, make us complete. And it's in what you believe my friend...in what you believe. Blessed Be and take care. 

26 Nov 2011

Breathing Space

Blessed Be My Mystical Fellas!

My exams are right around the corner and it's high time that I leave this beautiful world of writing for sometime. I will continue my posts on Tarot when I return because currently my mind set is mostly that of reading, reading and more reading...and reading Statutes (Yawn!) totally conflict with what I want to read. ;) I may or may not have access to the internet in the coming month, depending on the plans that I might have...but if I do, it would be much better for my writing...haven't been on a break for a while now. And I need some mental peace to continue.
Yeah, it screams *I am Interesting, pick me up!*
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I have noticed that I have become restless and find myself unable to concentrate on any thing I read - be it on witches or warehouses, fire or food...nothing is working. So *deep breath*... I am taking a break. Not for long - may be from tomorrow till...well, let's see. ;) :D Ah! The Determination I exude! *tch tch* Oh and before I leave, here's a figment of my imagination...for you, to ponder over...tell me, what you feel ~ 

You know I watch you, feel you touch me,
Touch me with your cold fingers as I remain silent.
Shush, my heart, for you may die someday,
Without knowing this mysterious lover…
You hover around the edges, into my mind,
Within the infinite darkness, you light a fire.
I sing a haunting melody and my fingers play a magical tune,
The stars shine upon me and fall into my eyes,
I watch my hands move to hold you…
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Hold you, embrace you and take you within,
I see you…I see you raise and lift beyond the soft embrace,
My eyes move up with you as you leave my world,
Tonight, you know I watch you, watch you touch me…
As you disappear like my breath stranded…into the night,
Were you there, touching me with your cold fingers?
Into the darkness tonight, I lay silent…
For I know you watch me watch you,
Take me with you.

Sometimes, we fall in love with things and people we cannot see, cannot feel...yet, the connection, the presence is so potent...you know them like the air you breathe...Till the next time I see you Blessed People, remember, distances do not part the hearts, it's the thought my friends...it's the thought.

21 Nov 2011

The Journey Of a Fool

(Part 1: First Five Cards)

Blessed Be My Mystical Fellas,

*Disclaimer: Very Very Long Post. Read only if you are able to keep up with the interest. And I believe you  would...for Curiosity is what moves us all :) :)*

I was not writing this post, for I was afraid I might not do justice to this ancient divination tool of Tarot. And I am bad at talking randomly, I do not want to spoil this one. Before I tell you the Story of Tarot, let me tell you a few things which made me pick this one up for further studying. I heard somewhere that each card of the Tarot tells a story. And every Reader may have his own interpretation. It's all based on See, Feel and Tell. But that does not mean, everyone can do it. Anything needs practice and without basic knowledge, if you venture into something, results can lead to disaster, disappointment and disbelief. I realized this in the very beginning, when I used to admire a particular Reader. She had warned clearly, accept only that what your heart feels is true. So, If I flip this card for you....Card No. XIII that is the Death Card, most of you will immediately freak out! Yes? Yes. Human nature. We jump to conclusions before we think. :)
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However, if you take a deep breath and look at this Card - it means the end of old things, shedding of certain decaying inhibitions and death of rusted, old and stagnant things in your life. It is in the perspective. A Tarot is always read in combination for a reason, to give a composite meaning to a situation. And in the subsequent posts I will tell you what each card means and represents, so that we all know...that what you see may have more to it. So that what you see may not necessarily be what you see... To explore, to learn and to imbibe...is the journey of life. 
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Few facts about Tarot ~
Tarot (Trionfi, Tarocchi, Tarock ) Cards are usually a deck of 78 cards, were used for the purpose of playing card games, in Europe during the mid -15th Century and are said to have originated from Italian and French Culture.Tarau was the French name of the card game played, given by Francois Rebelais. It was only after 18th Century that the Tarot was used for Divination purposes by the Occultists but there is no evidence of its use like that before. Tarot was not widely adopted by mystics, occultists and secret societies until the 18th and 19th Centuries. The tradition began in 1781, when Antoine Court de Gébelin, a Swiss clergyman, published Le Monde Primitif, a speculative study which included religious symbolism and its survival in the modern world. Gébelin claimed that the name "tarot" came from the Egyptian words tar, meaning "royal", and ro, meaning "road", and that the Tarot therefore represented a "royal road" to wisdom.  Egyptologists found nothing in the Egyptian language to support de Gébelin's fanciful etymologies. Despite this, the identification of the tarot cards was already firmly established in occult practice and continues in modern urban legend to the present day.
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(Information is taken from Wikipedia primarily as I could not find a well documented version for Origin of Tarot. For the info on Cards, I have used other sites).

The Sites which I have referred to are: Aeclectic Tarot and Paranormality

As I mentioned earlier...there are 78 cards in a normal Tarot deck. The Deck is divided into two sets: One set has 22 Trump cards or cards without suits is called Major Arcana (Greater Secrets) and the rest left, 56 Suit cards is called Minor Arcana (Lesser Secrets).

Let's begin with the beginning. The first 7 cards of the Major Arcana are:
The first card of the deck is:
The Fool Card: It depicts a journey, whether mental, physical or spiritual, and the Fool has ventured out for it, with all his worldly possessions in a small pack. He does not know where he is going, so filled with visions, questions, wonder and excitement he is, that he doesn't see the cliff he is likely to fall over.
At his heel, a small dog follows him (or tries to warn him of a possible misstep). Will the Fool learn to pay attention to where he's going before its too late? The bag on the staff/wand indicates that he has all he needs to do or be anything he wants, he only has to stop and unpack. He is on his way to a brand new beginning. But the Card carries a little warning as well. While it's wonderful to be enthralled with all around you, excited by all life has to offer, you still need to watch your step, lest you fall and end up looking like a Fool. For the Fool, the most important thing is to just go out and enjoy the world. To see what there is to see and delight in all of it. Unfortunately, this childlike state can make one overly optimistic or naive. For instance: that business opportunity might not be so surefire or amazing as it seems, and that new lover might not be so flawless. Like the Fool, you might be so busy sightseeing and imagining the possibilities that you completely miss the fact that you're about to go right off a cliff! The Card advises that one listen to that watchful little dog, which might be a concerned friend, a wise tarot reader, someone harassing you from the sidelines, or just your instincts. However exciting new beginnings may be, you still have to watch your step. The Fool Card means, if in Upright position, that there are new avenues opening, the beginning of a new life-cycle. The happiness of Fool indicates Energy, force, happiness, optimism and the overturning of the status quo or existing states by unexpected happenings. This Card represents Innocence, naivety, and spontaneity and also indicates that important decisions are to be made. If it's Inverted it indicates ill advised risks, impulsive action, choices and rash decisions, foolishness, gambling, instability and the wasting of creative energy. Consequently, it is considered then, a bad time for commitments and can be an indication of someone who starts many new things but never finishes them.

The Magician: As the  Fool listens to the warning and moves ahead, he comes across an Interesting looking Man. Skillful, self-confident, a powerful magus with the Infinite as a halo floating above his head, the Magician mesmerizes the Fool. When asked, the Fool gives over his bundled pack and stick to the Magician. Raising his wand to Heaven, pointing his finger to Earth, the Magician calls on all powers. Magically, the cloth of the pack unfolds upon the table, revealing its contents. It is as if the Magician has created the future with a word. All the possibilities are laid out, all the directions the Fool can take: The cool, airy Sword of intellect and communication, the fiery Wand of passions and ambition, the overflowing Chalice of love and emotions, the solid Pentacle of work, possessions and body. But here's the question, did the Magician create the tools, or were they already in the pack? Only the Magician knows.
The Magician is the male power of Creation by Willpower and Desire. The Infinity Symbol (Lemniscate) over his head indicates the Energy of Thought. Thus, he draws divine power from the Heavens into his white wand, molds it with the energy of thought, and manifests it on Earth (his finger pointing to the ground). This is that most ancient magic to make real whatever he imagines in his head merely by saying it aloud. ("And God said 'Let there be Light!' and there was Light"). The Magician is often represented by Mercury. Mercury is the planet and God of smooth talkers and salesmen, also anyone who is clever with the sleight of hand (Mercury *was* the god of thieves!) and a medicine man - either a real doctor or someone trying to sell you snake oil. If any card in the Tarot is The Tarot, it is the Magician. He's one of the most recognizable cards, always a favorite. He's also the only card in the Major Arcana that refers to the Minors with the "trumps" displayed upon his table. One way to look at them is as ideas that the Magician is offering you. Thus, the card is about getting an idea and finding a way to verbalize it. The Magician can indicate a time when one is eloquent and charismatic, clever, witty, inventive and persuasive. The Magician Card stands for the "reveal" - as in a magic trick. For Instance: The handkerchief is draped over an empty box, the Magician waves his wand, *Presto!* - now there is a dove in the box. The Magician card does the same and reveals not birds or rabbits but NEW ideas. When the Magician Card appears, you will realize or know, that there could be a NEW idea you never thought of before and it is now revealed to you. The Magician Card, if in Upright position indicates Mastery of the material world, creative action, self-discipline and a willingness to take risks. It also shows an ability to recognize one's own potential, the power to initiate, communication and wit. If it's Inverted, it shows Confusion, hesitation, inability to make decisive choices. It also shows inability to properly utilise time or talents, lack of inspiration or energy, giving up easily, poor self image, poor co-ordination and learning difficulties, sometimes.

The High Priestess: Continuing his journey, the Fool comes upon a Beautiful and Mysterious veiled lady enthroned between Two Pillars and Illuminated by the Moon and holds ancient scroll in her arms She is the opposite of the Magician: Quiet where he was Loquacious, Still where he was in Motion, Sitting while he Stood, Shrouded in the Night where he was out in the Sunlight.

Sensing that she is a great seer, the Fool lays out his Sword, Chalice, Wand and Pentacle before her. "The Magician showed me these, but now I'm in a quandary(Dilemma). There are so many things I could do with them. I cannot decide."

The High Priestess does not speak. She hands him a pair of ancient scrolls. The Fool seats himself at her feet, putting his decision-making on hold and reads by the light of her crescent moon. The words come to him then, within: "What do your instincts tell you?" Thanking the High Priestess, he heads off. But as he leaves he hears that inner voice, rising like the waters which spring and flow from beneath her throne: "We'll meet again...when you're ready to travel the most secret path of all." This Card shows the way that you must look within.Once you have an idea, you also have decisions to make. The High Priestess holds scrolls of Arcane information in her arms. In addition, the Moon crown on her head as well as the Crescent by her foot indicates her willingness to illuminate what you otherwise might not see about a job possibility, an investment, love, career, family, etc. But you need some alone time, some quiet time to meditate and reflect. This is what the card is all about. The Two pillars represent Two choices. The High Priestess is not about making a decision as much as it is about keeping you decision making on a hold, while you take time to listen to your inner voice. She wants you to Gain knowledge before you act: instinctual knowledge, supernatural knowledge, secret knowledge, self-knowledge. The High Priestess is seen as a perpetual maiden, the eternal virgin of an Athena, Diana or Vesta. Some also view her as a woman who might be pregnant. In such instances, the High Priestess is NOT viewed as an emblem of fertility, a "mother," but rather as a still, quiet incubator where the "idea" (child) can remain stable and protected. The High Priestess not only offers illumination, revealing secret paths and hidden dangers, but also a still, quiet place between the pillars of dark and light, where one can pause, see, feel and reflect on what one really wants to do with an idea. If the High Priestess Card is in Upright, it shows Intuition, Wisdom and Secret knowledge and the feminine side of the male personality (intuitiveness, protectiveness etc.). It also directs that something remains yet to be revealed, but patience should be maintained. The Card also means Duality and mystery.  It expects the seeker to look for Hidden Influences which affect both home and work and intuitive insight which suggest new solutions and the influence of women. If Reversed - Lack of personal harmony and problems resulting from a lack of foresight, suppression of the feminine or intuitive side of the personality, relying on Face value and surface knowledge, Repression and ignorance of True facts and Feelings.  In women, an inability to come to terms with other women or themselves, is showed. Also, this Card warns that Things and circumstances are not what they seem.

The Empress:  Encouraged by the High Priestess, the Fool strides forward, impatient to make his future a full-grown reality. This is when he comes upon the Empress. Her hair is as gold as wheat, she wears a crown of stars, and a white gown dotted with pomegranates. She rests back on her throne surrounded by an abundance of Grains and a Lush Garden. It is possible that she is pregnant.

Kneeling, the Fool relates to her his story. The Empress then miles a motherly smile and gently gives him this advice: "Like newly planted grain or a newborn babe, a new life, a new relationship, a new creation is fragile. It requires patience and nurturing. It needs love and attention. Only this will bring it to fruition". While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea time and space to decide on a form, the Empress is either the womb or nursery where it grows till it reaches a certain level of maturity. This is why the Empress' symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things and gardens, as wells as sex and love. Venus is the Goddess of artists, and helps them painstakingly develop their pieces from clay to statue, from first brushstroke to masterpiece. The Empress can also be about the not so nice aspects of a mom. She can smother, not know when to let go, be possessive and jealous of those who would take away her "baby." It is important to realize that plants can die from over-watering as easily as they can from neglect. Like any good mother or good gardener, One must have patience and the ability to adjust and improvise as their "baby" (idea, venture) sprouts and grows. If the Card is Upright, it shows promotion of well-being and security, creativeness in financial affairs, love and parenthood, maternal care, domestic stability, abundance and material wealth. It also depicts fertility, security, achievement of goals and growth. And depending on the surrounding cards, it may represent sometimes, marriage and pregnancy. If the Card is Inverted/Reversed it reflects possible domestic problems, financial difficulties, lack of affection and achievement, creative blocks and possible problems with a relationship, infertility, sterility or promiscuity and/or unwanted pregnancy.

The Emperor: The Fool has now reached a stage where he must find a way to manage whatever he has discovered. How to do this? He approaches a Great Emperor seated on a stone throne. The Fool is amazed by the way the Emperor is instantly, eagerly obeyed in every particular, at how well his Empire is run and organized. Respectfully, he asks the Emperor how he manages to do all of this. And the Emperor answers: "Strong will and a solid foundation of laws and order. It's all very well," he explains to the Fool, "to be imaginative, creative, instinctual, patient; but to control one must be alert, brave and aggressive.

The Emperor, as Aries, the Ram, naturally follows the Empress. He is Mars (the planet that rules Aries) to her Venus, her Lover and Compliment, Father to her Mother, Civilization to her Nature, Imposed Order to her Artful Creativity. He is the "All Father" giving his children the structure they need in their lives to help them become responsible adults. Aries is also, however, the first sign of the Zodiac, metaphorically the "infant." Like an infant The Emperor is filled with Enthusiasm, Energy and Aggression. He is Direct, Guileless and all too often irresistible. Unfortunately, like a baby he can also be a Tyrant: Impatient, Demanding and Controlling. In the worst of circumstances, the Emperor is a despot, imposing his will capriciously on his subjects. In the best of circumstances, he signifies an intelligent, enthusiastic leader that everyone wants to follow, the great monarch of an orderly, lawful, thriving Empire.
The Emperor card is the "Who's the boss?" card. It is an important question. The Card means being in control over your environment, your body, your temper, your instincts, your love life. This card gives the permission to be aggressive, brave, bold and in command. The Emperor can also be a warning to think about whether one's Empire has become an unwelcome chore. If it has, are you now a bad leader, demanding, unreasonable, unhappy? It might be time to abdicate the throne. If, however, what you have been building has merely gotten to a point where it's outgrown the nursery, then the advice is to switch from loving mother to structured, organized father i.e. to set down laws, discipline and rules and to plan out the future and lead the way. Upright - Competitiveness, forcefulness in development and execution. Authority, structure, governmental and corporate identities. Worldly power, self control gained through experience. Ability to shoulder responsibility. Also points at powerful individuals, who share your ambition and you can work together with the possibility of long term achievement. If Reversed - Loss or dislike of authority, corporate governmental or parental.  Immaturity and indecision, weakness, manipulative friends or colleagues.

PS: I am sorry for the length of the post. I hope you all find it as intriguing as I did. :) :) Oh, and no, I cannot read Tarot. This is just a background so that when next time, you come across some Reader, you would know what's up for you all, people! :D
PPS: Next up are the rest of the Cards of Major Arcana. I hope you all stick till the end! I believe in you! :) :) Till the next time people, remember that knowing something which people think weird, is not a sin...when you learn you also acquire the strength to take a path less traveled. And that is what makes us different, makes us unique. Lots of love and Blessed Be!

16 Nov 2011

The Magic

Blessed Be Lovely Fellas!

I am overwhelmed by the response you all have given on my last post...it was just a "Thank you" but you all made me smile, grin, laugh and feel like I am on top of the world! You all deserved every bit of it and you needn't say thank you for that. But, I am not complaining. I love it! :D :D Muchas Gracias to you all, Senors and Senoritas!
Starry Kiss for you all! :*
So, my next post is on Tarot Cards. It is taking me time to finish the research and shorten the details...but believe me, it is magical. It takes me to a different world. It's mostly going to take two parts because there are 22 Cards in Major Arcana and other smaller denomination cards in Minor Arcana.

Besides all of that, the point of this post is, how we miss the Magic all around us. Last night, it was one such realization. You know that Winters are round the corner and Nights are becoming a little bit colder...both of which I love. Winters and Night. I was writing down my thoughts in my diary when my eyes went to the Half risen moon. I sit before a window with my laptop and beyond the window, there is a balcony and you can see miles ahead. I stay near highway, so the houses are there, but far away. So, yes, Half Risen Moon. It's waning now, since Full moon was a couple of days back. And believe me, my heart stopped. The Moon was yellow orange-ish...still rising and there were stars! I mean, it's a surprise to see stars these days, when our skies have turned brown and orange due to pollution. 
Image Source: commons.wikimedia.org (I so wish I had a camera. This pic doesn't do justice to what I saw...)
Now, we really don't care about what time the Moon raises or how much time it takes to wane and all that (except for may be our mothers, who would need to know when in Purnima or Amavasya). I had started to keep a track, but then I forgot and got too busy (That is the excuse I give even for things I love). So, the Stars...I recognized Orion...and few common ones like Dipper but then it was too cold...and late in the night. I couldn't stand there. I stared at the moon for 10 whole minutes...when I decided I will write something. For we all should take time out, at least ten minutes to appreciate these finer things Nature bestows upon us.When I tell my roomies about how beautiful the moon looks, usually, they smirk 'cause, apparently it's funny that I become dreamy when I stare at the moon. May be it is, may be it is not. Magic is visible only to those who seek it without any inhibitions.

In Bangalore, weather is always good, so I go to the terrace at night and stay there for 2 hours at  a stretch. It's so easing, that I miss it here, in Bhopal. Tonight, I might though, watch the moon again. But it will rise late today. I think it's two hours later than it was yesterday. I am not sure. But, if you have reached till here...anyway, bearing my ramblings, you might as well read this tiny poem which I wrote for the Night... :D :D

The Night covers the forbidden secrets...
Of Desires and Dangers,
I am the storm, the harbinger...
Of the Bold and the Beautiful, 
The One so Invincible.
I wait for the Lady of the Night,
the One I worship, the One who guides Me,
To the path where You and I meet,
And the Moon shines down upon us, 
As I touch your face, the Stars pour down...
Tonight, I see, the magic all around,
When I hold you in my arms...
Clouds embrace us as I watch you, 
Our love has casted its charm ...
Into the Night, we move...
For you, my Love, I break the barriers and dive,
Into the Darkest Crevices...
Your hand in mine, our magic then flourishes....

Image Source: Google images
Yeah, House of Night inspired me ;) :D Till the next time my Lovely Lovely People, watch with your inner eye and you shall see, the magic that beats within you!

13 Nov 2011

And I found Peace in You

Blessed be My Wonderful Mystical Fellas!

I have been watching Bloggers being thanked and given awards and I realized, I have never appreciated the Stars I have picked through this year...it never occurred to me, honestly. When I started writing, it was to document the things I had read and I knew no one would judge me here for what I read...be it Voodoo or Vampires, Witches or Wolves, Superstition or Satan, Tarot or Tales, Love or Lust, Moon or Madness.

I could take out my fears, emotions, insecurities and thoughts here, without inhibitions. Writing made the flow of my thoughts much much smoother. I was afraid before, yes, as one of my cherished Stars told me...afraid to be in the bad books of everyone, submissive and apprehensive.
But, I love it here, everyone is sensible and mature. And yes, the comments are so encouraging, true and honest. And that means so much to me, so much. I learn something new every day. And Yes, being Mystical was never so beautiful for me. I am reading newer things, eager to share it with everyone. But this post would be empty without mentioning the Blogs I follow and the Brilliant people who pen them down! So, here's a list, not in order... of these Magical Souls who Dare to Believe.

Maithili: Your One Such Story became my everyday story. I never knew two people could be so similar, yet so different. Your name pleased me and then as we got to know each other...it was like we spoke each other's minds. If I say anything more, the essence of Silence will be lost. You know what you mean to me. For stories spun with precision, balanced on the edge of reality and fiction, One such Story is a place to be. I chose the Green for you, as you remind me of Earth and Nature - Grounded and nurturing. Blessed Be!

Red HandedI was caught in the color red@ Red Handed. I loved the way you write. Brutally honest, sensible tongue and an eye for extraordinary in the ordinary, you prove it right, that making someone laugh, even if you are blue, makes you a person of steel integrity. Your belief in yourself, shows. For whacked out truths and hilarious but apt observations, you have to be Red Handed. I am, are you? I chose flame Orange for you as you remind me of Fire - Luminous, Warm, Cheerful and Fiercely Loyal. Blessed Be!

PeeVee™:  Call it Love or Obsession for finer things in life, I stumbled upon the Confessions of the Chocolate Obsessed. With tastes as varied as true shades of chocolate, you showed me that sweet you may be, you have lived a life with experiences very real. Like Dark chocolate, you balance, the bitterness with silken sweetness that leaves me coming back for more. To view a passion that goes beyond words, you have to believe in Confessions of the Chocolate Obsessed. I chose wood Brown for you as it reminds me of Wood - Stable, Close to nature, Solid and Confirming yet open to Flexibility. (And yes, Chocolate Of course :D) 

TheGirlAtFirstAvenue: How to live life beautifully yet simply was shown to me by TheGirlAtFirstAvenue. You need not burn a hole in your pretty pocket to look lovely. And yes, intelligence, practicality and sensibility is what you show, Chandana. Your written word makes me laugh, think and realize a lot of things I wouldn't say. You don't have to go to New York to visit her. She is right here and you miss out on lovely stuff if you don't visit her. I chose Fuchsia Pink for you, as it reminds be of Fuchsia flowers - Unique, Bright yet Subdued, Silent yet Beautiful.

Abhilasha: Even when life throws torrents of cold, freezing rains on you and makes you sodden to the core, never stop believing and expressing what you feel, is what my Abhilasha is. I have known you recently but it's like I have known you always. Your bright soul shines through, even if hope doesn't come through. I learn to live life, from you, as it is. To see posts that make you smile with the sheer innocence and love, even when you have bawled your eyes out, you have to check Meoww (How could I miss your love for Cats? :) ) I chose Aqua Blue because you remind me of the sea, lovely to look at, lovely to feel....but hides all the turbulence within, to save others from it. 

Mirage: To say little but to drench the world with a million emotions, is what I learn when I look at the Mirage. Sometimes less words are laden with emotions which have the highest, strongest impact. I learnt how to avoid superfluous words and hollowness in what you say...from you Vinati, I learnt Patience and finding Beauty in the simplest pleasures of life.  Cute, funny and innocently realistic, is what you are looking for, then you will not be beguiled by the Mirage. I chose Golden for you as you remind me of  wheat fields that glow in the sun - Fulfilling, Light and Bright like Sun, like the twinkle you see in someone's eyes when they have found a way out.

Abysmally Mine/A Lot of Pages (and Three Others): Learning never ceases as I came across A Lot of Pages where I saw a man cut and shine like diamond - million skills. I learnt to keep reading, keep learning, keep moving, from you FL. You write, you can cook (A skill definitely drool worthy :P), you write poems in forms, I never knew existed. You are an artist. If you want to get back to your roots, you cannot miss any of the things this guy writes. I chose Cobalt Blue for you as you remind me of Richness a mind can hold, Intense, Soothing and Deep like the mineral found in the Earth.

A Peek Into My Life: And I thought it was tough to write simply yet in an impacting  manner. I learnt to live life from you, everyday Viya. To know what you have to do...little little things that matter and to love what you have, I just take A Peek Into My Life.  Cherishing small things in life, pretty, colorful and musical...take a tour in her world. I chose  Rose Pink for you as you remind be of the satin petals of Rose knit together in an indecipherable knot - spreading fragrance and beauty in the world, with imagination and thought.

My Tumbling Thoughts to The World: A woman is not just a woman, she is multifaceted, luminous  and Goddess. And the proud feeling of being a woman is instilled into me by the lady who writes My Tumbling Thoughts to the World. I learnt to be fearless, passionate and proud about myself from you, Suruchi. You cannot miss this woman, who is a dynamite of beauty, intelligence and Catty humor. I chose the color Red (My personal Favorite) because you remind me of Passion, Desire to Glow, Honest, Fiery and True.

Noises of My Empty Vessel: They say empty mind is a Devil's playhouse, Ah! What lies! When I heard  the Noises of my Empty VesselI realized that the space in the emptiness holds a profound silence, that no one can unearth. You add humor to your serious thoughts so that people can laugh, people can take life not too seriously. You have a side, the sincere one, the thoughtful one, which churns these brilliant guffaw-worthy posts. I learnt to humor God, from you Kalpak. Living life king size and turning the thorns into dandelions is what you want, check this guy out!  I chose Dark Blue (Blue + Black) for you as it is Intense and Mysterious like black, and spreads Infinitely like the Blue Sky.

Coloring Life Purple All the WayChinese Astrological Signs, I always found intriguing. And then I saw The Dragon, I couldn't contain my glee. To shield your heart from the scars and yet live like you were never hurt, takes the intensity of a Dragon indeed. Thoughts that are honest and straightforward, are not easy to pen down and yet you do it. To live admiring, thinking and cherishing what I have, is what I learnt from you, Priyanka. And all you Purple Lovers out there, do not, I say DO NOT miss her, she will make you smile, MSM promises. I chose the color Indigo Purple for you as you remind of the Mental Strength and Intuitiveness that the color evolves with. A Dreamer, A Thinker and living in the moment, like the flow of Indigo.

Moody Mocktails: The High that life gives you sometime and you lose your way in the Moody Mocktails. I learnt to keep standing even when I am lost in the crowd, even when I have to confirm to the standards set by the hypocritical society, I live, in the dizzy spell, life casts on me, from you Aakash. Yes, as he says, you can get addicted to his Blog and you would wish, the addiction never ceases. I chose Teal Green for you as it reminds me of Forests laden with roads and paths Unexplored and yet to be Discovered.

Embodying Emotions: And there she was, yet again, to console me, to walk me through the muck I had created around me, after all Embodying Emotions is not easy, yet you are there, always Sarah. You write, with feelings and truth not spilling over each other, which makes reading you a refreshing experience. For a blog, that doesn't lie to you, follow her. I chose Sky Blue for you as it reminds me of Purity, Cleanliness and Vastness that can hold everything in its arms, like the sky above.

I cannot leave this post without including these wonderful Bloggers Paanipuri Lover - who I joined yesterday and God! She is hilarious! Her color as I feel is Lime Green - Effervescent, Bubbly, Tangy and Punchy! Keirthana who is witty, smart and thoughtful like the Uranus, which rules the color Aubergine Purple. She appreciates and stands by what she believes.For her Blog she chooses the infinity symbol calling it as UndefinedSmita  - for keeping the child in her heart, alive. She reminds me of Marigold flower, hence the color, abundance to be cherished and valued. You can reach her while you flip through the Pages from, Diary of a Lost GirlAnuranjani, who never forgets to drop by and make me smile. I wait to hear from you, lady. She found me when I thought about my name and she writes @ To Hell With The Name. I chose Deep Red for you as you remind me of the Life Force that flows in us - Strong, Flexible yet soothing, life providing. Last but definitely, not the least CRYSTAL, who makes me think of the subtleties that the mortal eyes miss. She uses a Symbol very close to my heart, called PENTAGRAM and is a very talented writer. I chose Amethyst Purple for you as it reminds me of the labyrinth that our mind creates which confounds many but shows a way to the deserving.
Image Source: Patrick Pendalis
The Colors that I have given here, are my own thoughts, the feel and the image I get when I think of you. It's the way I see you. No Magic Involved. No Rabbits Killed. ;)

I cannot live without the Moonlight and the Night sky and I am sure, I have forgotten some wonderful people, so I apologize...and leave you with the light of this Crescent to shine upon you and soothe your minds. This post is a very small way of acknowledging what you all mean to me. It may sound absurd or hokey, but MSM wishes to stay true to all, so I mote it be! Blessed be.

A special Acknowledgement to Anoop from My Life Doesn't Suck Anymore, who gave me the name MSM. You made my life easier!. You have been a great friend and I want you to write, you invisible man!